okay so last night i broke down again only this time i was not able to get the urge to go away i tried everything including cleaning my house at 3 in the morning so i cut myself and it helped but now i feel like i have to do it again. and again it has never been this bad before with wanting to do it so much, but i di it is really the only thing that helps me through this pain that i have going on in me. i want out but don't know how to get out. is it like this for anyone else.
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