I don't really have an answer to that question, but I am in the same situation. I hand't done it in years until the past couple months, and now I can't stop, because my life went to crap quickly. All I can say is hope for the best and try to occupy yourself with things to keep your mind off of it. It has worked for me the past couple days. Can't say much for tonight, but as long as I am busy I don't think about it.

I think of cutting daily,hourly......with any little stress,problem.....I've come to the conclusion that my body doesn't know how to handle any stress......it just freaks out and says overload.....can't take it.....want it to stop now....before I do something stupid to stop it. I haven't cut for quite a while but I want to all the time what stops me.....well the picture of them four kids....the look of fright from the last time I do cut. But, I'm always fighting to keep myself from doing it......my body needs it....wants it so I can survive some how in this world. I will be strength.....I will not let my disorders WIN!

i do it too. it's part of SI i think because if we didn't feel we needed to do it we wouldn't. I've been getting worried about myself because i seem to have an obsession with it. I can't keep off of the videos on youtube and if i'm not doing that i'm thinking of SI

I have been cut free for 3 1/2 years and its always been a struggle and lately its a HUGE one. We do it because its one coping mechanism we are familar with and because it is an addiction. We are lucky in the sense that most that cut (the percentage is something like 92%) are not suicidal - cutting is all about survival but unfortunatly it is also an addiction and like most addicts whether we activly participate or not the idea of wanting too is never far from the front of our minds.