Its all gone. everything inside of me is gone. i have no feelings. i dont feel sad anymore, i dont feel happy....i feel nothing. oh it makes me want to cut again...then i'll feel. i have nothing going fr me. bad job, losing my friends, i'm ugly, i'm fat, i'm stupid...no one will love me. i hate myself. i hate not feeling i hate it. i'm gunna stop, i'm gunna stop taking the medicine, stop going to therapy..stop it all. i'm done, i've given up. i wanna feel, and i dont care if its depression i feel..i just wanna feel something. i have no feelings. i dont know what to say. i'm numb. theres nothing inside me..i bet there isnt even blood. i wanna check, i want to see my blood and a lot of it, i want to feel it and watch it drip down my skin. i dont want this life anymore. i want to sleep, without the thoughts.
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