Self-Injury Support Group
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i've now gone 9 days without cutting, but today a really minor thing happened and it's making me want it again. it's so stupid, all that happened was someone at work was calling me a 'posh bitch' because i don't have a local accent, then someone else told her what my parents do for a living, she turned round and said to me 'and you're working here?! (in a factory) you're letting the side down aren't you?'
i know it's the smallest thing, but it just reminded me of all my insecurities, about how i'm not good enough, and i do know i'm a disapointment to my mum because i actually have a-levels, but i can't motivate myself to find a job that matches up to that. also because i'm not finding it easy to stop cutting and i'm hyper-sensitive to small criticisms right now.
am i being stupid?
i know it's the smallest thing, but it just reminded me of all my insecurities, about how i'm not good enough, and i do know i'm a disapointment to my mum because i actually have a-levels, but i can't motivate myself to find a job that matches up to that. also because i'm not finding it easy to stop cutting and i'm hyper-sensitive to small criticisms right now.
am i being stupid?
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NO! you're not being stupid, that would upset me to! as hard as it is try to ignore her... I mean, why should some jerk have that power over you?? *hugs* congrats on 9 days!
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your vunrable thats all of course its not stupid that your upset that this bitch had a go at you!! cutting has probably become a safety net so when something bad happens you want to reach for the knife. YOUR NOT BEING STUPID!!!
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thanks. i'm feelin even worse now though, just had an argument with my best mate. he gets mad because i don't believe when he says positive things about me. now i want to cut so bad, i'm just messing things up again, as usual
deleted_user
well that is a stupid argument, that shouldn't make him angry... *hugs* stay strong, would just going to sleep help?
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i go there a lot with my dad i don't believe it when he says i'm not fat or ugly and i get mad. you've gone 9 days theres no need to throw it all away just talk to mate he'll understand
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i don't know, he gets so angry when he thinks i'm not listening. i'm so scared of losing him, he's more than just a friend really, but there's only so much of this stuff people will take. its not fair that i keep dragging him down because i feel bad
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really feeling like i have to cut tonight now. don't want to, but feel like i have to
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*hugs* you don't and I don't either.. we need distractions.. hm, a funny movie maybe?
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