its been like a year and a half since i last cut. and i normally dont think about it anymore. but ive been depressed for the past month and i dont know why its not as bad as before but i just feel very alone and misunderstood. i feel like i dont have a purpose and nothiing to look forward to.. that i dont have anyone to relate to and these things from my past just keep coming back to haunt me and these people are all around me still that i never wanted to ever see again and it hurts that i keep constantly have to be reminded of how im not as good as them or im not as happy or fulfilled. i have no one that can fulfill me i have no purpose right now and i just feel as if i only have myself and since im not happy i just need SOMETHING to give me exciitement or some sort of feeling other than this dissapointment and sadness at least for a little bit. :(
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