Someone tell me how to not. This is the temtation place. I'm at work (the funeral home) with the surgical steel scalpels, I'm alone, noone will answer their phone, i cant go outside for a smoke, my gss wont pick up the phone, h/ is busy at work, and i WANT a fucking scalpel. i had forgotten i had one in my purse. but i still have it...just in case. its been 14 days now with no s.i. but i havent been in this situation. its bad. the urge is bad. and i cannot think of one good reason not to cut. FUCK!
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