i thought i had beat cutting a few years back. with the rape and stress of daily life becoming so oppressive, i have given way to cutting again. for a few months, i have been using piercings as a way to self-mutilate in a less unacceptable manner. now that i don't have the money for this, i resorted back to the blade. tonight, i inflicted three new cuts on my wrist, as usual. i don't want to digress back into the times of when i would cut often but these recent urges to cut are scaring me. in my fear comes more anxiety comes more depression comes more need to release my tension. its a circle of self-destruction that i wish to break. will i get out of this before i have cutting as a part of my life again? i really don't want to have to wear thick bracelets or sweatshirts to cover my wounds. i don't want to hide anymore. any words of past experiences with such struggles would be beneficial.
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