I have been a 'cutter' since I was about 15 and the last 3 years or so have been bad. I cut on my arm and I only did it when I was really upset and usally drinking. But yesterday I cut twice and I did it just because my life sucks. It wasnt like I had to but I wanted to and I think that I am getting worse. Before I would cut my arm because I didnt care who saw them. But yesterday I cut on my leg that way no one would know unless I told them. I told my husband about the first one but not the second one. I told him I was sorry but he doesnt know for what. I just dont know what to do. Is it because I am coming off my medication and its messing with me or is it just because I am cutter and will never be able to stop, or is it just getting worse and how much worse can it really get. I cant hang much longer I know that. I just wish I knew what was going on with me and my body.
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