I cant do this. i just want to cut. I deserve it, im such a bad person. I dont deserve happiness. I dont deserve love. I deserve Pain. I hate who i am and who i have become. I dont want to wake up to me every morning. I dont want to be me. I just want to escape, be someone else. I want to cut away at the bad parts. I want to rid myself of this hate. I want to hurt until i hurt nomore and all i feel is numb.
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