I've had a really rough few weeks, I started self harming again after 5 months, and I've started doing some really stupid things. I'm trying to come off my meds so I can start some new ones, but I'm having really bad withdrawl symptoms. I've got 2 weeks until my exams start so I'm stressing over that. Me and my Dad are arguing loads. And I'm feeling more suicidal than ever. I'm really not sure how much longer I can cope for. I don't think I'm ready for treatment, but my therapist keeps pushing me towards it. I'm stuck in a horrible place right now, and I can't escape. I'm going to hurt myself, and really badly at some point too. But I can't find it within myself to fight. I'm a prisoner in my own body, in my own mind.
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