I have been in therapy for close to 20 years. Sober for the last 16, but suffer from Eating disorder, PTSD, SI, and Bi-Polar. After all these years I still can not challenge the belief that I am just simply a "BAD" person. Worthless, and oh-so- selfcentered. People tell me different, but I just think that if I wasn't so "BAD" maybe it all wouldn't hurt so much. the pain just doesn't seem to go away. I try to control myself and everything around me to keep the pain and fear away...but I can't seem to get away from me... does anyone ever feel this way?
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