Yes one month since the last time I cut. I am very impressed with myself. Not to say that the urges werent there because they have been there from the start. I just tried really hard to ignore them. I ended up getting tattoos on my wrists (where I do most of my cutting) I guess in a way to stop myself from doing it. So far it is working. However, my drug use has picked up. I cant kick both habits at once. That would just be insane. I kind of made a pact with my boyfriend that I wouldnt (or I would try not to) cut anymore. I couldnt promise that I wouldnt do it altogether because I dont know that for sure. But so far so good. Its been really really hard for me not to. I cant bring myself to get rid of my blades though. Last time that happened I flipped out nad went into a panic attack.
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