Self-Injury Support Group

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I hate my life

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OK.. So I'm 19 years old live on my own and I am a full time college student... Sounds like A normal person to you? Well I am FAR FAR FAR from normal. I have been through hell and back. My child hood was so messed up. My dad was never there I was sexually abused my sister killed herself, I was and well guess i still am a cutter. I have tried to kill myself multiple times!!! my mom was diagnosed with Alzheimer's when i was ohhh about 15 or 16. I was in and out of hospitals and placements since i was 11. I have been on ever medication possible. I'm plane out crazy!!! everyone sayes that I'm doing so much better then when i was younger and i guess i am but they dont understand that I feel the same way. all my caseworkers and people are so proud of me and stuff but they dont see the pain that i face everyday. I want my mom back in my life and i want to be happy. When asked what would make me happy i had no response. I want to be loved and appreciated. I want them to see the pain before it goes to far!! They think that because im not in hospitals and they dont see marks on me that i'm just fine. Well im not. I'm depressed and sad. and thats just how its gonna be.
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I know that feeling - when people say you're doing so much better but really you're just getting better at covering it up - that's happening to me right now - my Mom and Dad think I'm "better" like I was sick in the first place or something - and just because they don't see the pain and anguish I feel. It hurts when people move you on before you're ready - I don't know which is better - to dig deep and get past the pain or to build up a tolerance to it :( wish I could help - I know how you feel though - you're not the only one.
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yes, the mask of "ok" hurts... it is a heavy burden to carry. I wish I knew what to say to make things better.

*hugs & prayers*
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The people here will see your pain, if you let them. And we can share ours with you. Sometimes that helps :)
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*nods* hiding feelings from everyone... I understand that... *hugs* welcome!!!
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