No I feel the same way. I mean I respect Kurt Cobain because he killed himself. Sad and disturbing as it is.

I envy people this way too. its horrible. Also, I really like Van Gogh because he commited suicide. I mean I like his paintings but the suicide just adds so much to it.

Well i like to think that God has kept me from doing it somehow.Ive been through so much!

i envy people who have the courage. im so afraid of letting people down that i cant

The one thing that keeps me from doing it is that I have always found a way to screw up everything, I dont want to fail at a suicide attempt and remain the burdon of a veggie on my family for the rest of my/their lives. Sick that its not because my first concern is hurting them by a successful act of suicide but I feel like they really would be better off with out me, just not in a coma and a diaper in a hospital ICU.

i feel the same way a lot. i mean i've tried it so mny times, but never succeded and i've been told the same that i'm to strong. but i dont know.

yh i cant do it either i dont want to be a disapointment to people even if im not there
i have thought about doing it plenty of times and also i think if i do try and it doesnt work and i end up in hospital my parent will know what iv been doing
that scares me
pethetic i know

Yes, I am very envious of those who do. I am not sure tho if is due to their strength or weakness that they do. I think it takes an enormous amount of strength to do either end it or to live. Existing doesn't take a lot of stength.

i envy people who commit suicide, i recon they are brave

I'm not sure if I can, because I know I'll do it. I'm not sure when. My pshychologist won't be around forever to talk me out of it.

I also envy the people that can off themselves I don't think that they are weak, but brave. Your not alone!

i think its intresting how they suceed thats never been somethin i've suceed at and i wont lie i have attempted a few times. How ever you have nothin to envy you are not weak and neither were those who commited sucide it takes a great strength to do both and i am not talking about phyicall strength i mean emotional strength and truthfully those who surive are the stronger of the 2 cuz they dont chose to end there world they chose to live in it.

Used to but don't anymore since I had a go lol Just turned around one day actually went through trouble of buying a knife, then stuck it straight down into my vein. Hurt like fook. Ended up in hospital. People pissed off at me. Almost was left there. NOT WORTH IT.

See my problem was never the fact that I couldnt do it. It was that I would fucking live through what any normal person would have died. I never understood why it was that I could survive all the shit I did.

I do as well. I am convinced it will be done for me soon enough. I just wait. I am afraid doing it myself would result in no chance ever period.

This is something that I have thought about ever since the age of nine. I often wondered if I was really stronger than those who took that final step, or if I was a coward for not being able to do the same. However, for me it has always been a matter of pride. How could I ever find peace in death, knowing that the bullshit that life threw at me had finally broken me down? That I had given in and admitted that I couldn't handle it? That hurts me more than anything. More than the emotional pain, the memories, the voices that haunt me on a day to day basis. I will never admit defeat. I will go through Hell and I'll get through it alive. Because when I do die, I want to be able to look at God (if the Divine One truly exists), and hold my head up and say that I took everything He/She/It threw at me and I endured it, defied it, and damn well beat it.