I cut today... first time in over a month. I thought I would be more disappointed with myself but I'm not. Im not sure why I dont feel guilty. I tried to reach out to my boyfriend yesterday and then again today. But he wasnt there as usual. I tried to reach out to my best friend but she was too preoccupied with her own shit. I have been sober for 32 days and thats how I have been dealing with stuff lately and I decided instead of drinking I cut. I'm just tired of feeling alone like no one ever has time for anyone but themselves. I listen to my best friend complain about her boyfriend and what a jerk he is all the time. I listen to my boyfriend complain about everything under the sun and then he gets mad at me and tells me how I never open up to him yet when I do he always manages to blow me off. ARG! Anyways I feel better now for venting. Thanks!
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