I cut again! I feel so stupid. I know it's bad for me, and there is a risk that I could get caught everytime, but when I'm really hurting inside, and going through hell, it feels so good. But I hate it! I cut right before I went to youth group and I felt so dirty and unwanted there, because god doesn't want a filthy d***ed b*** cutter in heaven. He doesn't want someone like me. He doesn't want the lonely girl who sits in the back of the room pretending that everything is okay, when it's not. He doesn't want the sad girl who punches walls 'til her knuckles nearly bleed or break. And he doesn't want that weak little girl that reverts back to cutting or burning everytime something comes up.
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