Well I am away for a while, staying with friends. I am trying so hard not to self harm, because I don't want to be found out and sent home. The last thing the people I am staying with need is to have another person to have to look after that is mentally unstable. They already have one person who is not well right now, they don't need another... I have tried to make it look like I am fine and better than I was... but I am not that better... although I have not hurt myself while here... I still want to. I guess I thought that coming here would ease my problems, but they just followed me here. I have butterflies in my stomach all the time that they will find out that I am not coping and send me home. I like it here and I want to live in this town eventually. So I want to try and not self harm and try and be happy. Any suggestions on how to stop the urges will be appreciated. What do you do to stop yourself? I am finding this hard. Thanks for reading...