i have felt traped since i was little & started hurting myself at a never young age. 5th grade to be exact. back then i was very shelter in odd sense; i did know many people / about back things like cutting & drugs.i did know i had bone & i would take a hammer & slam it on my bones & the would evenually crush even on ones that were already hurt(my dad has abuse me since i was four. the only way i got him to see me as a human was to see an injury that he didn't do and then bhe would be ok. it was the only attention i got. else all i was was a venting system for all is anger (beating, belittling me, screaming at me , and all while drinking. so to get way from that i went to sleeping pills when i got to 7th grade. still broke bones too & i have ungraded from those thing too. i would take a needle and started to drain my blood from my arm so i would get really lit headed and then pass out so no matter how hard it hit me it would not hurt. but here is my question to you how do you love yourself again;make through the day without doing something;stop thinking about it;not show your pain to others?
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