I dont know how to make it stop. I want to cut, but I cant because I am not willing to do that anymore. But its like when I get done feeling bad and not cutting then the next time I still feel bad if not worse because I wasnt able to get the pain out. Hoe can you make it stop. I understand stopping cutting but even after I stopped cutting I still want to and I want to make those feelings go away. How do people that dont cut get through a bad day or anything?? I wrote more in my journal about why, but I just want to get over the feelings that I have. I cant get rid of them. I can make them stop but they never really go away, they are always there just sitting in the back, they may be in the back but they are loud. I just need help and I dont want to go back to the hospital to get it because what would I do with my son. I think the hosptial woud be good for me to be able to get back on medication and be in a place that if I feel like this then they might be able to help. Hell I dont know. I want help. I dont want to feel this way anymore.
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