I am ruining the beauty God gave me!! I don't know how to stop marking my body. I have promised myself many times that i wouldn't cut myself anymore. Sometimes it works, i can actually talk myself out of harming myself and other times i can't. I have removed all knives (including butter knives) from my home. Yet i still manage to cause harm to myself. I have lost some of the feeling in my left arm and have to wear wrist bands all the time. I am afraid that one day i will accidentally kill myself. I have been told to check myself into a hospital where i can be watched at all times. This is not what i want, matter of fact the thought makes me mad. How do you stop the urge to spill your blood??
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