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On an episode of House (airing right now, in fact), there was a woman lying on the hospital bed, asleep. House, following one of his *hunches*, pulled back the blanket a bit and uncovered an all-too familiar sight.
Her leg was decorated with a series of small, neat, clean red lines. Cuts, arranged in the same pattern I use, about the same length and deep... It was like a snapshot of my arm or my hip or my ankle or, more recently, my knee a day or two after an incident, when the cuts had started healing and were nice little red lines and not puffy or inflamed...
Anyway, I found it comforting. It made me feel better to see it, to see that pattern and neatness. It made me feel GOOD. Which makes me wonder: do I cut only for the release and the physical pain to ease the emotional pain, or do I derive some sort of satisfaction from the visual of the finished product?
Just wondered if anyone else could identify...
Her leg was decorated with a series of small, neat, clean red lines. Cuts, arranged in the same pattern I use, about the same length and deep... It was like a snapshot of my arm or my hip or my ankle or, more recently, my knee a day or two after an incident, when the cuts had started healing and were nice little red lines and not puffy or inflamed...
Anyway, I found it comforting. It made me feel better to see it, to see that pattern and neatness. It made me feel GOOD. Which makes me wonder: do I cut only for the release and the physical pain to ease the emotional pain, or do I derive some sort of satisfaction from the visual of the finished product?
Just wondered if anyone else could identify...
deleted_user
i totally identify with that. the neatness makes me feel better too. like, if i slip and it goes crooked, i doesnt feel as good as when its straight and neat.
deleted_user
Do you have a set pattern that you tend to use each time? I always start with parallel lines of a certain length, and then I start another set perpendicular to the first, and there's a whole pattern that ends up with this nice square that resembles a quilt or something warm and nice like that...
deleted_user
there's no rhyme or reason to the cuts that i do. i just cut...i slash away wherever i feel like it. sometimes they are parallel, sometimes they are all going sideways but they are crooked. i love seeing the finished product. like you said, a day or two after. i like looking at it and knowing that i did that. it's the one thing in my life that i have some control over. but no, there is no pattern to how i do it.
Thriver
What was different, is that the cuts were on her back, where I guess she couldn't see them. ?
deleted_user
I cut words into my flesh, so I do definately identify!! For me, it's the pain, blood, look of the word, how deep it scars, how much it bleeds.
deleted_user
I actually think I get more satisfaction when I do it randomly and in no particular order. Once when I was in a psych ward, one of the nurses told me that women cutters tended toward doing it more slowly and "orderly" while male cutters tended generally to more randomness. I do not know if it is true, but has anyone else heard that? It is true for me.
deleted_user
I really do get where youre coming from i mean i get some sort of satisfaction from seeing it too. i dont know how to explain it. xx
deleted_user
unlike mst people who have commented, i get no satisfaction whatsoever when i see the scars that i've made. it makes me feel sick that i could do it to myself when i see the finished product, but i get satisfaction from the actual SI if that makes any sense whatsoever.
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