I feel hopeless. No one really cares is how i feel. PLus all my friends are tired of my pain. I wish that i could cry and get this poision out of my body but i can't seem to. JUst feel dead or most of me anyway. I really wish that i could die for real. I have tried to kill myself before and failied. I have been is so many hospitals i have lost count and i am scared to tell anyone hoe i feel in fear that i will be sent back. God i wish so bad that this pain would stop. I am so anxious and scared that i moight actually do it. I am good at putting myself in dangerous situations and just not caring what happens to me. If i die it has to look like an accident because then my family won't be judged and it will be better. I don't even know what i am saying anymore. What the fuck. I JUST CAN'T DOTHIS ANYMORE!!!!!
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