okay, the cutting at the moment is nobn existant, coz my ex took my blades and i cant get hold of anyhting. this is driving me crazy, i will have to find something soon. last time i cut was probably monday, and i cut my face subconsiously. recently ive been strating to remember the times ive been cutting, or rather ive been 'told' about them . nick is in my head, but very much part of my life. its him who makes me do it. he forces me to. he does other things too.. he strangled me the other night. i couldnt breathe and i kept gagging, he would not let go of my throat till i had taken my top off anf got a drink of water. he wont leave me alone, and i know its not exactly a cutting problem, i dont know what problem it is, butit sure makes me cut.
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