I was a cutter many years ago while being very depressed and dealing with my parents divorce right before my senior year of high school. That last year pretty much sucked. I haven't had the urge to hurt myself in a long time, like 8yrs or more. Now I have had feelings of doing it again. Thanks goodness I have not done anything. But those feelings have come up a lot during this past week and over the weekend. I am having trouble dealing with being raped, which also happened a few years ago, but i never got the right kind of help to deal with it and just tried to make it all go away. I am thinking part of this urge is coming from that, I don't know. I just have all this pain inside and I can remember how it felt when i hurt myself, it got all those bad things out of me. People who don't do this, don't understand how it makes you feel. No one understands, they think you are crazy. Any help would be appreciated. Thanks! Blessings :O)
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