this has gone to far. i have been cutting for 9 years now.Burning myself hurts so bad,but not bad enough.Cutting leaves bad scares,but not bad enough.i have so many scares and so many burns that i dont have skin left its all tanted its all sick.i cant even look at myself .im only 19 years old and i know i will never find a man to love me and care about me, all every guy evr sees is scares and stitches,bruses and welts.no one ver takes the time to know me n.e more .its as if the pain that this world has put on me is who i have become now.Im no longer Amina, the girl who love to dance,sing,and act goofy, the girl who would try the stupidist shit if it would make somone smile,the girl who still believed that there was a meaning to all of life.Im Amina, the cutter , the burner, the one who will always be alone, because no one wants this in their life.No one wants me.I dont want me.
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