Army strong, that is. on wednesday i swore in, and im now in the army. i go to basic in january. since it's past midnight, i am now 100 days healed. this is a huge milestone in my life. i love my country, and i'm grateful that i get to serve and protect, and defend our freedom. it was this goal of joining that made me stop cutting in the first place, and i know without this in my life id be right back where i was. im so much better now. i have a future, a purpose. a destiny. my faith in God has helped me so much, i can't even tell you. it was partly my love of God that mad me want to serve. mien is a God of freedom, and i will uphold that ideal at all costs. God wants us to be free from oppression, but also free from addiction. i found my motivator, the one thing i wanted so badly that id give up cutting for it, which was a huge sacrifice. maybe there's something you guys want badly enough to give it up too. if there is, let me tell you it's rough. i still struggle. but you can do it, i believe in you people. we're all a lot stronger than we know. i never thought i was strong enough to do this, but im doing it now. i know that other challenges lie ahead, but fighting this has helped me know that i can do anything.
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