Crapola! I cut pretty bad last night. My wrist was the worst, but i have also started on my stomach latly. Well I am having a hard time covering my wrist cuts. Shit, right now i have a bandage on it, but how am i going to explain to dad why i have a bandage on. I also have ringworm on my stomach right now so what am i going to tell him if he asks to see how the ringworm is doing? Fuck. I dont even know what triggered it. I dont even know if there was a trigger, maybe i just did it. Once i started i couldnt stop. The only way i stopped was because i saw how bad it was getting, but i didnt want to stop. It was my relese. like somehow, that blood running down my arm could lessen the crap emotions i was feeling. It is hard to put into words. I dont know. I know i should stop cutting because its bad and everything, but i seem to hurt a little less afterwards.
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