i actually dont remember anyof it.
ive relised that i cant remember any of the times i cut. like i can see the moment befor. and after just not durring.

thats interesting! Do u remember why?

i know i cut in high school but then there was about 9 yrs where i didnt. I do remember the first time i cut then though.

I was very much in love with someone ( and still am but we are not together thank god) who is schizophrenic. Dealing with his ever changing personalities and issues really got to me one night and I beat him up. I went into the bathroom and felt so ashamed that I was so violent toward someone that i loved that I cut my arms and legs with a knife from the kitchen. That was about 3 yrs ago and I havent stopped since.

I dont remember much about high school and why i did, I was in a really bad car accident when I was 14 and I have a hard time remembering things after long periods of time so I cant tell you if it was emotionally charged or what. Hell, it was probably post traumatic stress considering my accident.

But I will never forget that night with my ex.
never.

I remember, it was a thrusday (I used to go to this therapy thing) I was 11 and I was angry for some reason

i remember the thing that made me think of doing it tho, i was at my little brothers funeral and not even realising it i was scratching my arm and noticed that the hurt from doing it so hard helped. so when i was alone and very low i did it. i remember the feelings of it and how much better i felt afterwards.