And doubting anyone will care. Feeling very alone without the crisis team, was discharged today and it feels like they're saying I'm fine by myself. I hate being this down and not knowing how I'm gonna be from one moment to the next. I keep trying to remind myself all that I have to be grateful for but it keeps getting drowned in a sea of misery and pain. I feel like harming myself but I cant go to the nearest hospital, even if I did the only people I could see are the crisis team and theyve just stopped seeing me so they wouldnt come out and assess me. So I'm all alone, and I've got to put on a happy face to go this theme park tomorrow with my family when I feel like I'm snapping under the weight of my mood. I can only hope this burns itself out. Sorry for posting this, I feel like a waste of space but I'm just trying to reach out instead of hurt myself. Its all I can do right now.
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