I've been feeling on the verge of tears for the last few days. The anxiety hasn't been helping. I can barely make myself get out of bed and when I do, I am exhausted the remainder of the day. I am 29 years old and have been dealing with depression/anxiety for most of my life. Some days I am so fed up with myself, so disgusted with the fact I cannot be strong enough to just make myself normal-not moody-not in constant pain that I fall into a deep depression and the only way to regain any form of control is to cut myself, throw up or to start a fight with someone I love....I know...all a way to self destruct.. I can't really talk to anyone about it because they think it's either laughable or stupid. They don't think to ask me why. I have no idea what to do. I don't even know why I am writing this. I just know I am so fffin fed up. Some days I just wish I didn't have to do this anymore and I am sick to death with people judging me about it. What's worse is this whole "emo" thing. Why does cutting oneself have anything to do with a trend. Believe me, I could literally punch a person who says that again. Anyway, this is my hello....so hello.
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