I have cut for years; and have been trying to stop for a while. This summer I went a year without cutting. I had big expectations and it was a great time. One thing I wanted to do was get a tattoo to mark the year, but it was the summer and I worked at a camp and still wanted to swim. My best friend also wanted to be part of it, and I wanted that too, because she has been my only support and she was in Africa at the time. So I decided to wait until the year and a half mark because I was doing so well I was sure it would be fine and I would be that much stronger. We were going to have a big celebration. The problem is at just over 13 months I cut. I have no idea how it happened, but since then I have been doing it a lot. I want to quit again, but cannot seem to get past a day or two. Well I said all of that because tomorrow would have been that year and a half mark. It is really bumming me out. Has anyone else struggled with having failed milestones? I once was told by a counselor to not count the days and I never understood why, now I think it is because of the risk of failure. Anybody have any thoughts? Thanks.
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