I told everyone I had stopped but one person. Well two now. Jacob and megan are the only people in my life i can tell stuff to and talk to without putting on a face. Lately I just dont want to be here. I tried getting my dad to understand but all he says is Kelly all you need to do is change your life. Easy for him to say. He wont let me go to therapy(one on one or group) he stopped letting me go to drug therapy which sucks cause now I have no place to get those feelings out either. Everyone right now thinks i am doing so well and i know if my dad new... he would be pissed he says i am just doing it for attention. Attention my butt i cant get through soooo many things without doing it. Megans started to loose site in that aspect to so jacob is pretty much my only support right now. Megan actually had disassociation this weekend though and attempted suicide... so i guess soon i will be able to talk to her again to. But i dont know what to do. What the hell can I do with my dad not letting me do anything. And my mom she told me how she felt last night about people who atempt and commit suicide. The thing is i dont care about that with my mom its just what she was saying WASNT right. It bothers me oh so much. I need help but cant get it... any advice on what to do?
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