Ok, so last night I dreamt that I had cut myself. It wasn't deep, or long...it was "normal." But I woke up feeling like I had cut. I had to check myself to make sure it hadn't actually happened. But, even though I was clean, I've been feeling like I cut all day. You know that feeling you get the day after? I can't seem to shake this, and I really feel like I've cut somewhere, only I can't remember where. Which scares me because it's triggering, and I'm already 3 1/2 months cut free. Anyone else had dreams like this? I've had them before, but not to the point where I felt like this all day long.

Also, most of you guys know I gave my tools to my therapist over a month ago. He didn't throw them away, but kept them on his desk. There's been a big...tug-of-war within me to tell him to throw them away. He said I had to tell him what to do with them. So, anyways I told him during my last session to throw them out. But now...now I'm freaking out. I am afraid to go to my next session because I don't want to hear that they are gone for good, that and I'm scared he'll make me throw them away with him. Either way I'm stressing out majorly.