Lately Ive been really disappointed with myself. Im trying, so hard to stop cutting, but after a couple of days, I just feel so horrible I feel like I have to. Its been four days now, and earlier today, I found myself clawing at my wrist, trying to break the skin or re-open the old cuts. It was almost instinctive, as if my body did it by itself. It makes me feel so horrible, cutting was the one thing that I was in control of, and now Im not even in control of that, and it's driving me insane.
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