i have always had a problem with SI since my dad raped me when i was younger but since my mom died i had refrained from cutting but last nigth i did it again. i was feelign so bad. i could not stop crying and i was in somuch pain. i am not happy iwth myself but i tried everything to get pass the urge writing sleeping running and crying nothing helped so i cut my cousin did find me and he made me stop he is mad @ me but i don't care it was the only thing that helped me feel a lil better.
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