I am bipolar and in a mixed episode that is hell. Today was a really bad day and all day all I could think of was ending it. Its like a voice in my head keeps saying you know your a screw up stop ruining everyone else's life and take yours. but i wasn't ready so i got a razor blade and i made a bunch of cuts up my arm. just to see if i could feel anything because i felt so empty. why would i do that
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