So, i used to be really bad into cutting. I wanted to try and stop and it was down to one or two cuts every month... and then i met my boyfriend. One night after something had happened.... we were all drunk, and i cut on my leg pretty deep and my wrist one time. he got REALLY upset and said if i ever did it again we probably would be done. Which i can understand because he is scared, and has never had to deal with it. Anyway-- i have stopped for about 3 1/2 months now and my cravings were REALLY bad the first month or so...and thats why i'd get horrible anxiety over it. But now, i'm getting the itch again..just to do one more... just one...a little one where no one can see... and it sucks cuz i know the minute i do it, i'll throw away those 3 1/2 months, and i'll get depressed again. Does anyone else know how i'm feeling? If so...what do you suggest i do?
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