
Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

this2willpass
ive gotten so far into this, so used to it, that it doesnt seem to matter anymore, i dont feel guilty, im not really that bothered, in fact i dont really feel anything when i do it. i dont know how its got to this but i cant stop, and im snowballing so very fast, i need someone to help me. its beyond what i ever thought it would be, its beyond the scratches every so often, its like a constant want to hurt, to feel like something, to feel like somebody.
my friends all tell me how good i am at listening and how down to earth and honest i am, which isnt fake, i genuinely like to be that person because then at least it give me reason to continue, i feel like im worth something. but sometimes i just think, what a joke... if they knew any of this it would be different. i dont know what im trying to say, i need help, i know that, im scared to ask, i dont want them to know, but at the same time, i know they need to before i do something stupid. it is like a battle, im losing the battle, i can feel that, but if i get through it, i want to win the war, because i hate it so much, with everything i have, i hate this.
my friends all tell me how good i am at listening and how down to earth and honest i am, which isnt fake, i genuinely like to be that person because then at least it give me reason to continue, i feel like im worth something. but sometimes i just think, what a joke... if they knew any of this it would be different. i dont know what im trying to say, i need help, i know that, im scared to ask, i dont want them to know, but at the same time, i know they need to before i do something stupid. it is like a battle, im losing the battle, i can feel that, but if i get through it, i want to win the war, because i hate it so much, with everything i have, i hate this.
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