Well, I had a good month and a half where I hadn't done ANY form of SI. I was proud of myself, and I really thought I was done. But then, just before college started, I freaked out and hurt myself pretty bad. And now that I'm in college, I really don't want to start back up again, because I'm afraid it will scare, or make my poor roommate uncomfortable. She's gone in the mornings, though, and I have the mornings off, and every time she's gone, I just want to hurt myself. My poor roommate, I haven't told her I'm bisexual yet, and I'm such a freak, and she has to deal with me. Also, I have a new friend here. She's really nice, we met over the internet because we were going to the same college. I hadn't really approached her on the whole bisexual thing, and when I met her, I'll admit, I crushed immediately, she's so cool. But then I came out...I didn't tell her I liked her, and she didn't disown me or anything. We still hang out. She still lets me stay at her hotel overnight, and she doesn't seem uncomfortable with it, but she's obviously straight. And, it really wouldn't matter, I would just get over it, but some of the comments she makes are like punches in the face. Nothing directed at me, personally, but she says things that are...demeaning, towards the LGBT community. And it just fuels all of my weird anxieties and makes me hate myself more, and makes me want to hurt myself more.
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