I'm really trying hard to fight the urges to cut right now. I thought I was having a good day but that was quickly shot down when I realized that the bank has taken my entire pay check to make my car payment that I couldn't aford to make last month. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I have no money what so ever. And my next pay check in 2 weeks is going to have pay my next car payment that's due and my credit card bill. I have a whole nother stack of medical bills I have to pay too. I'm just so stressed out I don't know what to do any more. It's like I'm not aloud to have a good day any more. Maybe I'll just take some more Vicodin and go to bed. Cutting would just be so easy to do right now but I havn't done it in 2 months and really don't want to start again. I want to try to do something right for once. But that doesn't stop the urges.
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