I cut alot due to my husband's lack of just about everything a marriage needs to survive. We have been married for 9 years, the first year he was wonderful. Now the only time he pays attention to me is if he wants something. I have lost so much- custody of 2 older children, most of my posessions, my house, my friends, my self respect. I owe thousands of dollars because he did not work for a year. I have no family support,no where to go. My daughter is 8 years old and loves my husband very much- I do not want to ruin her life. I was clean for a month, but have cut the past 2 nights due to stress in the relationship- more lies on his part. Acting like everything is ok day after day for the kids is killing me. I sleep about 2 hours a night. The second night I felt like I was going to cut, I told my husband. He went to sleep and was furious that I was upset. I'm losing it. The only thing that is there for me is cutting, but I'm terrified it will become a nightly thing. I am so alone and waiting for my daughter to go to sleep so I can cut. I hate myself.
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