you're not crazy. i'm the same way. its like i accidently put them out there but how acciental it is i'm not sure. I want to talk about it but I'm still really scared. and how i wear rainbows but get defensive when my parents ask me about them.
you should really look for the right people to talk to about it. someone you know you can trust and will be supportive. prepare them for it and make sure its in the right environment and at an aporopriate time as well (i.e not if you're arguing and dont minimize it by being like "oh hey by the way i'm a self injurer can we talk over brunch") i think thats all i can say about it. hope it helps little bit. have a good week.

of course your not crazy sweetie.

hearing the was people talk about people who SI, its totally normal to be afraid.

i was the same way, wanting somebody to talk to me, or help me, but couldnt bring myself to ask.


so i reached out to a school counselor.
i dont know your school policies, but mine was 100%confidential.
i know she wouldnt judge me or anything like that.


i wouldnt recommend turning to a friend for help b/c they dont really know how to help unless they have been through it.

but reach out to somebody, a counselor, teacher, older friend.

and you know you can always talk to me.

hope this helped.
let me know how its going.

Your not crazy you just want help but your scared to trust such a private and intimate part of you with someone. I have made it a policy not to hide my cutting. I don't flaunt it like a badge but I don't hide it either. If I don't hide then I bring in the people who will support me in conquering my problems and at the same time make me accountable for my actions. Fresh blood,fresh cuts gets all my implements taken away from me by my husband. Not with anger or judgement but with love. I see people when I am out sometime look at the gashes that might peek out from under a sleeve. I see them look quickly away. Who cares. Maybe someone in that crowd does the same and will take comfort from seeing me. Cutting does escalate. You don't want to be alone in this if that happens. You need a shoulder to lean on. You need someone who cares,who loves and who will help. I know if my 13 year old daughter was doing this I would want to know. I would hold her,tell her I was there for her and I would get her help. Isn't it ironic it is her mother that does the behaviour and not her? If you ever need to talk I won't judge and I will listen. Sue

honey, it is ok. you can always talk to people on here. i am always free! you are so young, i am sorry you are going through this