I've done it again! I harmed again the other night. Scratching my skin off with my nails. Pretty stupid eh? And now I'm still getting angrier and punching myself, on the arms, on the legs, in the stomach, wherever I can. I had done two whole weeks and then screwed it again. I can't work out why I do it. Except the other night I was writing and getting so angry and I realised I'm pretty messed up in my head. I don't go a day without mentally screaming insults at myself. And the worst part is that they're all true. It happened so fast. Now I hate myself. It just happened. What's wrong in my head all of a sudden?!?!
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