I want to scream. Music isnt working I need to cut so badly I think Im going nuts. I havent cut for a day. w00t. Goodness Im never going to get over this. I try to act like Im better b/c everytime I try to talk my family tells me I need to stop being weak. All I want to say is "gee, thanks for the support". Im not okay. Im sick of my family always putting me down. A few seconds ago my mom is like I need you to find something for me. Im like okay..sure. Shes like go find your personality. Everything I do is wrong. I want to cut so I dont have to feel. But then they yell at me b/c I dont talk. What the fuck???!!! I try talking and they DONT listen. They yell at me for spending so much time on the computer. Well ds is the only place I can bitch and moan about my problems. That way maybe I can go at least a few days without cutting. I really need someone to talk to. AHHH!!!!! I dont want to but I might just slip again.
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