I was sleeping soundly and happy and then the phone rang. I didn't answer because I don't know what to say to him and an argument in the middle of the night is not something I need. I wrote him an email 2 weeeks ago finally admitting to him that I needed a friend because I was not ok. It took him 2 weeks to respond! So now I lay here awake crying because i don't understand why he doesn't care. I don't understand what could be so wrong with me that theres only ONE person in such a big world that I truely trust and I know loves me. Only one. I sent him another email telling him that I'm done trying. It just hurts so damn much. I just want everything to go away. I'm so sick of being so sad all the time!!!
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