
Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

ashley1028
So I'm an EMT and over the last few days we've had some pretty stressfull situations at work, plus my homelifes gotten extremely stressfull. Due to stress I started cutting again. I used to do it a year ago after i was raped but i slowly was able to get myself to stop. Well now i've started again and the last couple days i've been doing it a lot.
Well then the other day I had a girl that attempted to suicide and another that cut. I already felt awfull because I had to take them to the psych hospital and all I wanted to do was tell them that I understood what they were both going through and that i've been/am there. So as if that wasn't bad enough I had to sit the last 5 hours of my shift with my partner (the guy I work with, not a boyfriend or husband) going on and on about how he doesn't understand why people cut or want to commit suicide. After a while i just wanted to tell him to shut up that he couldn't possibly understand. But at the same time I'm afraid of people around me finding out that i cut and that i at times am suicidal.
I guess what i'm trying to ask is what I should do about him. It really bothers me when he constantly talks about it and has no idea what its like and he constantly judges out patients and it feel like he's judging me because i'm just like them. But then i really dont know if i want anyone to know. Then again I guess one of these days he is going to catch on that my constant injuries from my step dad and the cuts on me aren't just "accidents". I feel stupid posting this but I just dont know what to do anymore.
Well then the other day I had a girl that attempted to suicide and another that cut. I already felt awfull because I had to take them to the psych hospital and all I wanted to do was tell them that I understood what they were both going through and that i've been/am there. So as if that wasn't bad enough I had to sit the last 5 hours of my shift with my partner (the guy I work with, not a boyfriend or husband) going on and on about how he doesn't understand why people cut or want to commit suicide. After a while i just wanted to tell him to shut up that he couldn't possibly understand. But at the same time I'm afraid of people around me finding out that i cut and that i at times am suicidal.
I guess what i'm trying to ask is what I should do about him. It really bothers me when he constantly talks about it and has no idea what its like and he constantly judges out patients and it feel like he's judging me because i'm just like them. But then i really dont know if i want anyone to know. Then again I guess one of these days he is going to catch on that my constant injuries from my step dad and the cuts on me aren't just "accidents". I feel stupid posting this but I just dont know what to do anymore.
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I guess the only thing I can suggest is to not neccessarily reveal anything about yourself, but try to have a civil discussion about what may cause your patients to feel the way they do. Maybe your partner can begin to understand if you create a neutral dialogue on the subject. Often times it helps people to think about things from a completely different point of view.
if nothing else, tell him he's an idiot for being so judgemental. hang in there. we're here for you and understand what you are going through. :)