SO, after my ex completely abandoned me last night, I gave into the urge to cut myself again. I haven't done it in years, but I felt so alone. I was sick of him making me feel like shit and treating me like shit, then getting pissed off at me when I either got upset about it or tried to defend myself. Right now, I don't care if cutting myself was selfish because it gave me temporary relief and made me forget about all the emotional pain I was feeling and how alone I really was. I know that people who don't cut or SI could never understand, and I was going to come here for advice on what to do...but I didn't want to be told not to...is that wrong?

I def need help because I fear I may be having a complete relapse and I don't want to stop....The urge to get back into my old ways consumes me more and more every hour of every day...

For full details of last night, see my journal...