Does anybody else feel a sort of shame... None of my friends know about my cutting. And the other day my friend was kind of depressed all week and we were talking and she asked me "I wonder why people cut themselves...? I mean. What's the point. How's it help... Why do they wan't to kill themselves?" And I didn't know what to say. I wanted to tell her that I cut to not feel so numb. That for me, it keeps me sane so I won't kill myself. That I don't want to even kill myself, That it's a release, a calming, an addiction. But instead, I was embarassed. And I acted awkward. And then I just found an excuse to leave.
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