I am in a institution. I also have BPD. Are any of you familiar with that. anyway i don't think anyone here understands this. i was fine earlier today. i have a lot of situational anxiety right now and i asked for a prn that i had to call the complaint hotline and tell them i was in crisis after sleeping only 3-3.5 hours since last friday. and he gave me a prn buspar. well i have taken it 3x since yesterday and all 3 it has made me even worse well now I have to wait until monday. well anyway i'm rambling. what i'm trying to say is i haven't si since june and right now i really feel like cutting, i have tried pretty much everything i know except taking a walk outside and now i can't do that because it is dark. i can't stop crying. i don't know what to do. one minute i'm fine the next i feel like i'm losing it. i don't know what to do. there is no one i can talk to here thank god i have found ds even though i just found it the other day. i won't be able to talk anymore tonight but i will do a check in in the morning. i know this is long but i feel better already knowing someone somewhere is listening. thanks. sparky really doesn't fit right now maybe i should change th loser, wait a minute i'm feeling sorry for myself that's what everyone always tells me
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