Hi, I just joined daily strength yesterday. I love the idea of a support community like this, it is so nice how people are there for one another. I joined the To Write Love on her Arms group on facebook, and over the past year there have been so, so many times when I've desperately wanted to write on the wall or in a discussion topic, but I just couldn't do it. Even though TWLOHA (does anyone else on here know about it?) became really important to me and even though I changed my privacy settings so no one could see what groups I was in, I was terrified that my family members or friends would find out what I wrote on the wall. Right now is the first time I've ever been able to do something like this, post something about what I'm going through online, and even though I know its anonymous I'm still scared that someone I know will read it and figure out its me. But I need to find a place like this where I can express myself to people who won't judge me and where people will be understanding. I have struggled with depression, anxiety, and eating disorder problems for a while now, and I started self-injuring in other milder forms, such as hair pulling, back when I was in 6th grade, and I started cutting a little over a year ago. Last year I started my freshman year of college, but I had to withdraw in March because I was so overly stressed out and my self-injury was getting worse. I tried to keep my self-injury a secret but my psychiatrist told my parents, and eventually my sister found out too. But they don't understand what I'm going through with this. They have said a number of times that I do it for sympathy or attention, and they keep making me promise to never ever do it again, but its not an easy promise to keep. I always try to keep it a secret still but somehow my mom always finds out and then she screams at me for doing it. She says that she can't trust me and she wants me out of the house, and it makes me feel so so much worse. And I'm scared that my sister is going to find out that I've still been cutting, she's back in college now but she's coming home this weekend. I need to know that there are people out there like me who I can talk to about this anonymously. I'm sorry this post is so long, but please read it. It would really mean a lot to me, so much more than you realize, if you could respond to me. Can anyone relate to this? Do you have any advice? Thank you. Love, Sarah
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